I have just experienced some real excitement. Last hour has delivered countless emotions. Emotions so real, that it’s hard to describe how excited I am at the moment. Still can’t believe what has just happened. And I tell you what, maybe not everything will work out the way you’d like it to, but the important thing is, you live it [the moment], you focus on it, now, not the past, not the future. There will be plenty of scenarios. You can’t control it, just let it be. It will work out, one way or another.
This post is a ‘Dear Diary’ post. I need to express my happiness and general content with how things are at present. It’s probably one of those post, that you come back to, years later, and you read it and think ‘Well, that was cool!’
I’m sitting now in my London apartment, record player playing ‘Guardians of the galaxy’ soundtrack, couple of Diptyque’s Pomander candles are lit, up on my fireplace (I’m still not sure, if it works for real). I am being cheeky, stole my boyfriend’s beer from the fridge. I am celebrating.
I am celebrating the moment of excitement and content. I am happy with my actions, I am happy with myself. I think it’s very important to learn to appreciate yourself. I did good. I risked and it was worth it. Whatever comes next, I gave it a shot.
I am happy.
"Ain’t no mountains high enough" came up now. You can conquer any mountain.
So just remember, you can do everything, just give it a try. Put yourself out there and let people judge you. Get out of your comfort zone and see what happens.
And don’t worry if the outcome is not what you wanted. Something else will happen and it will all make sense then.
"There’s so much pressure to edit oneself to a T, to flesh out who you are and then attempt to capture exactly who that is on an iPhone camera, in 140 characters, or in a series of emojis and clever hashtags. The problem with this depiction of your “real life’ is, of course, that it’s not very real at all. It’s how you want to appear to the world. It’s nearly impossible to show what’s real because your actual identity is a moving target. Or, at least, I think it should be."
I couldn’t agree more.
It’s time we take a step back and look at ourselves from another perspective. Is the ‘us’ on social media, really ‘us’? Do we like the person we see? Is it (maybe) time to become real, forget all those ideal pictures and frames that don’t really illustrate what is around us.
Celebrate freedom.
picture of me in my hometown, having an ice cream, that I use to have when I was 5 yo
I am a bubbly person. I try to make people smile. That’s my mission, I think.
It’s 22:08 in London. Time to watch some Netflix and plan tomorrow.
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